I'm starting again....

This last week has been a complete and utter write off. Everything that could have gone wrong did and I have this female complex (which is new, I think it means I'm getting old) which means I take responsibility for things to keep the peace then feel guilty about them even though these things weren't my fault.

I've apologised where necessary and shouted where appropriate along with making some people really understand where I'm coming from which is also a new trait, but which has had (semi) good results today.

I'm still feeling the hangover, emotionally and it's definitely showing physically, hence the show off my favourite clothes in my 365 project, just so I don't have to show my face! The emotional hangover is much harder to deal with, like I said, some things were my fault, others were not. But I feel guilty about them all, and I don't know what to do except forget and move on.

I'm not going to go into detail about everything that has happened, very counter-productive on the moving on I would think. So this is the fresh start, I'll deal with the sickness and the pressure and the stress and the dissertation and forget about the people and just get on.

I hope it works.

In other news I got this email today:


Hi Shelley,

Thanks very much for this - you've done a really good job.

On the strength of this, would you be interested in writing anything else for the next issue?

Just let me know over the next week or so.

Many thanks. Jayne

From corporate communications after I wrote a lengthy news story for them. Quite pleased with that, not too sure if I can take on any extra work yet, but good news all round I think.

Lets hope the good stuff continues...