So where were we?

This blog wasn't supposed to be very personal when I started it, but finding the time to sit and write a report, or a feature, or just an articulated well written rant is difficult. It's so much easier to sit at my computer and spill. I'm not one of those people who is comfortable writing about every minute detail of their lives and publishing it online. But then, I don't really know who I'm writing this blog for.

It started as a seminar excersise at Uni, and it stayed that way for a few posts. I hated the idea that so many blogs were started then left with only one post somewhere in cyberspace, forgotton and relegated to the depths of the internet. So I kept going, I've posted about everything, and I did try to keep it professional, but now, I'd hate for an employer to see my emotional rants about life, the universe and Neighbours.

I'm pondering taking stock and deleting the emotional debris, but when I read through the posts it's like a diary. A diary of the things I thought too trivial to talk about, too boring to make into a story but also those things that I did think were important. Things that struck a chord or things that made me angry. I occasionally wrote to style, I occasionally wrote something that resembled a feature. I posted Uni work, competition entries and things I'd tried hard to write.

But now this blog is littered with both emotional and professional posts. I'd delete some, but then it would be incomplete, who really (apart from maybe a future employer) wants to read an entire blog made up of my news stories and half hearted features? It's boring, I suppose it's up to me to make my writing exciting, but how can you link a 3000 word feature on music festivals to a news story about the Thelwall Beavers and keep it interesting. And, what employer is going to actually look at a blogspot.com webspace?

I don't know what I'm trying to achieve, I'm lost in a number of parts of my life. It sounds like I'm trying to take stock. Make everything into something and have direction and show the passion that I really do have. I promise! But at the same time stay professional and interesting.

It's a hard balance to strike and I don't think I've achieved it here. I know what I want this to look like, but it's hard.

Oh, and I'm not starting another blog to keep both parts of my life seperate. That's rediculous. One or both of them would end up unused and forgotten, then dragged up on me when I'm on 'This is Your Life'!

Thanks, to whoever reads this, I occasionally get comments and emails, but not enough to make me think that I have an 'audience'. Maybe that's why I share.