23 Days to go...

23 working days that is. I'm counting down already to the end of work placement and the beginning of the summer. I've always hated it when people "wish their life away". Always waiting for the weekend or counting hours till the end of the day. You only live once, why shouldn't a Monday be as fun as a Saturday? Surely there's something in your day that makes it worthwhile.

But here I am, doing everything I hate. Counting hours and days and wishing they were over. I hate myself for it, but the working for free isn't really filling me with much joy. I'm finding it hard to concentrate on my work because no one is really expecting anything amazing. I think that will change next week though when I'm under the pressure of a deadline!

My expectations of this placement were immense. I had visions of me working 20 hours a day with no thanks and no support. It's turned out better than I expected but I still can't help myself wishing the day away. It doesn't help that every night when I finish work placement I have to go earn actual money in my real job. Not a job that I particulary enjoy or am inspired to do well in but it buys me food and beer and pays my bills.

I hope one day that I can have a job that I truly love and that I don't mid getting up in the morning for. It has happened in the past and I hope it happens again sometime. In the meantime though, I either want to be a proper student who works part time and moans about how hard it is to write a 3000 word essay or a journalist who gets paid to sit in the office and re write press releases. Neither of which is happening right now! I'm doing the latter, but doing it for free and I think we've established that this is not the kind of thing I can see myself doing for 20 years. (Or less, depending on when I get bored or have a quarter life crisis).

So good luck to all of you on placement at the moment, I hope that something is giving you joy and it's not just the thought that there are only 4 hours left of your working day or 23 days left of your entire placement. Just think, when we finish all of this, there are still 3 weeks until the end of term. That's a whole lot of Piazza action!

Have a lovely day.